We love it when our readers want to share their voices, which is why we are thrilled to invite today’s guest poster back for a second time. Abby is a long-time reader of Just.Be.Enough. and first shared her story of what makes her special. Abby writes mostly about kids, motherhood, and writing. Her story today was inspired by Angela’s post about choosing to live near her family.
When I was growing up in New England, my small family — mom, dad, two kids — did not live close to any extended family. One set of grandparents was in California, the other in Florida, with various cousins, aunts, and uncles scattered around the rest of the country. We saw them maybe once, twice a year, tops.
My mom says I always wished for a big, close-knit family like that of my best friend, Lisa, who had lots of relatives in town and always had a substantial cheering section in the audience at school plays and dance recitals.
When it came time to apply to college, my parents encouraged me to look at schools all over the country. Staying close to home was never a consideration. I chose a college a couple hours away, then moved 300 miles away after graduation.
As fate would have it, I met a guy who came from a large family and hailed from New England, too, a mere 90 minutes from where I grew up. We fell in love, got married, and enjoyed the ease of visiting two sets of parents in a single trip.
Then we had kids.
Suddenly, the parents who had said, “Sure, apply to college in California! Go off to France for semester! Bon voyage!” changed their tune. “When are you coming home again? Thanksgiving? Christmas? Why do you have to live so far away?!” And of course there was another set of eager grandparents to consider, too.
But as we added another child to our brood and they both started school, it got more difficult and expensive to travel. We’ve endured rescheduled flights, snowstorms, holiday traffic, ear infections on airplanes, sleepless nights in a portable crib. After one particularly grueling nine-hour drive home one Thanksgiving weekend, I swore: Never again. Relatives come visit us from time to time, but it’s not the same as living in the same town.
My husband and I have talked about “moving back home.” But the fact is, this is our home now. We’ve lived in our current city longer than we lived in our hometowns. Our work is here, our friends are here, our kids’ schools are here. We have built lives here, full of great friends and neighbors, trusted babysitters, people who feel like family. We like the city where we live, the place we chose to raise our family.
But even though I chose this life, I sometimes feel sorry for myself. I’ll see neighbors getting together with their families on a Sunday, cousins playing together at cookouts, friends dropping the kids off for a sleepover at Grandma’s. Whereas we have to hire a sitter for every date night, teacher meeting, doctor’s appointment, even to do projects around the house without kids underfoot. Once I even got a sitter on a Sunday afternoon just so my husband could watch football in peace and I could go shopping by myself. I have missed countless school events because I can’t be in two places at once.
In some ways, living closer to family would be easier. Easier on us, our marriage, our budget, our kids’ relationship with their grandparents. But, like most things in life, it’s not that easy. And of course as we all know, geographic proximity is not a guarantee of closeness.
Some part of me will always wonder what it would be like to live in the same city as my extended family. But I also know that I am blessed to have my own little family — mom, dad, two kids — and the life we’ve built for ourselves here, surrounded by friends and loved ones of our own choosing.