I woke up a couple months ago knowing that my exercise routine was not enough. It was time to hire a personal trainer to help find ME again. I never felt I needed a trainer- it was a waste of money, right? Well, after only a month, I can honestly say it was the best decision I’ve made in a really long time.
As a lifetime athlete, I am used to playing hard and pushing myself to the limit. I’m hooked on the endorphin rush that comes with the “runner’s high” and the fist-pump “yes!” that escapes my lips as I better a time set as a personal record. When I do these things, I feel accomplished.
I would also consider myself a little bit lazy. After hard base training and competitive season, I look forward to the “rest” period or “off-season.” I like that I can let the diet relax a bit and slug around with TV clicker in hand.
This past year has seemed like one giant “off season” and I didn’t realize it until about 2 months ago. I kept a running routine through the winter months, making sure to log in 3-4 miles per run, 2-3 times a week and as spring edged closer, I added more long runs to complete a half-marathon in May. But after that run? I only did the bare minimum. My summer months became busy with other matters and the lack of exercise caught up to me and quickly.
My clothes fit different. I started to feel a bit plump as I bent over to shave my legs in the shower. Then came a day when I put on my running compression shorts and they felt tight! What?!
My friend had been working with a trainer at a local gym and suggested I give her a call. I hesitated for a month to do so, saying to myself that I could do it on my own. I was disciplined enough.
Not so.
When the scale topped at 150, 20 pounds over my skating competition weight, I felt a lot of emotions. Sad, disgusted and frustrated to name just a few. How could I let myself get to this point? How could I let myself down?
So that morning, I woke up, said ‘enough is enough’ and made the call and set up a meeting. It was time to put the focus back on me and getting healthy again.
After a month, I’m down 6 pounds and back to finding a part of me that I thought I lost.
I’m back on the road to Badass and I’ve never felt better.
Ever felt like you lost a part of you? How did you go about getting it back?
xo
Kelly
Good for you Kelly. I’m experiencing the same issues right now. I’m trying to be “enough” with it, but it’s frustrating too. And like you, I’ve upped my exercise game too.
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Thanks Missy! I will say it was a hard number to look at, that’s for sure. After a month I’m feeling like I’m getting back to myself…I feel stronger & motivated with each workout.
You will get there too. I have no doubt!
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Congratulations on asking for help – it is a hard first step to make. I completely understand that feeling of shock when you have to “own” the number on the scale. I’ll be cheering you on all the way!
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