Sleeping Toddlers are Enough | Just.Be.Enough.My newly two year old son is screaming around his pacifier, standing behind his closed door. He pounds on it with fists that are each holding a lovey.

I open the door and he is instantly silenced, arms outstretched. I pick him up and we settle back into the glider for the third time, rocking in the dark. I don’t sing this time, just rock and think.

I think about the new website I’ve been building that is already dusty, full of “coming soon”. I think about the unfinished writing. The clean laundry wrinkling in a heap. The DVR queue still full. The jobs for which I should apply.

Every night for months, I’ve undergone this battle.

Every night, at some point I let it go. I rock and think, smelling his hair, looking at his chubby feet and recognizing how quickly my sweet boy is getting too long to comfortably lay in my lap.

And so I’ll rock – and for once remember: This crowding of time and falling of priorities isn’t always because of I’m losing myself. It’s because this is simply the largest part of who I am right now.

I’m sure by the time that sinks in, he’ll be asking me to drop him off a block away from school.

Tonight, this room, this boy and me, rocking, is more than enough.

xo

Tracy

About Tracy


ChiMomWriter is a career gal trapped in a mom's body - Hold the mom jeans. She is a writer, marketer, fundraiser, marathoner, wine drinker, and music lover. She has two kids, ages three and two. Her home blog is It Builds Character and you can also find her on Twitter.

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