I’m always enthused about the changes that come with the new school year, and then the new calendar year.
This year, the new school year was meant to bring an increased focus on my blog and an increased focus on my personal writing.
Then life kind of changed from my original plans and I had to readjust. Not only did I not increase focus on my blog, but my focus was reduced.
So when the new calendar year rolled around, I (rightfully) decided that one of my goals of 2013 needs to be a reduced focus on my blog, while I figure out what direction I want to go, both online and personally.
But it’s now making me sad!
Because I like to know what I’m doing. I especially like to be in control. And I don’t like this feeling I’m having about my blog. That I don’t have the time to devote to it to help it grow, and that I’m not sure it’s “worth it” to continue with something that’s not growing or changing.
But then I say to myself, “How is ‘worth it’ defined?” I know there are people who read my blog and feel like their lives are improved from it. Does that, in itself, make it “worth it” for me?
If one life is changed for the better through my words, isn’t that “worth it?”
But in an online world where everyone’s yelling into the canyon looking for the echo back, sometimes I do wonder if that’s enough.
What do you think? Is helping one person enough? Helping five? 10?
I always think of the starfish story by Loren Eiseley. The story of the person who’s walking down the beach throwing one starfish at a time back into the ocean and someone comes and says “you’ll never get to them all. There are thousands out here. You’re not going to make a difference.” And the person throws another one back into the ocean and says, “I made a difference to that one right there.”
And whenever I hear that story, I have my answer.
Yes, even if I’m only helping one person, it’s enough.
There’s hope in that.