What is Enough?
Enough is defined by dictionary.com as “adequate for the want or need; sufficient for the purpose or to satisfy desire.”
I thought about this definition for the longest time as it could be applicable to so many situations. We all define that term on a very personal basis. What is enough to one is not the same as it is to another.
So what is Enough for me?
At this very moment in my life, it is the struggle of finding peace about not being very close with my family. I am not speaking about my husband or my children, but with the relationship with my brothers, my mother and father and extended family.
Do I want to be close with them? Some days, that answer is a firm yes. I feel a hollowness where they should be in my life. Do I need closeness from them? Sometimes the answer is no, because that need is satisfied with my husband’s side of the family.
For years I have been the one to call, make time to visit, extend invitations to dinner, make weekly stops for coffee and conversation. This past year I have pulled back from that almost as an experiment to see if any of it would be reciprocated. For the most part it has not. The effort to stay connected seems to be one-sided.
So for me that family closeness I desire will never happen. I have to let it go and let it be. I believe this is the root of the importance for my husband and I to create a home that is full of life, laughter, and most of all love.
I must find peace in knowing that my own family is enough.